Crash.

This is not good. Amanda, my best friend in the whole world, my cousin, more like my sister, is engaged. To a man she's known less than a year. Known, not just dated. I love her more than anything, but this scares me to death. I'm glad she's found someone to love and everything, but he's taking her seven hours away. She's moving to Kentucky this fall and they're getting married before she's even done with college.

This caused a big argument between us. She thinks I'm being selfish for not completely accepting this engagement, but how can I? I don't hardly know this guy enough to approve, and nobody is really crazy about this whole thing. I mean, its better than her being engaged to her last boyfriend, much better, but still..I'm just so scared.

Ever since we were little we always planned that she was going to be my MOH and I was going to be hers. Well, we both said some things we didn't mean, and it left us both hurt and heartbroken. She definitely doesn't want me to be her Maid of Honor now.

I can't believe I'm losing my best friend in the whole world over this. She thinks I'm being selfish because I don't completely accept it.

I don't know what to think. This blog probably doesn't even make any sense.


Thoughts, please?


XOXO
Meg

I'm surprised at myself.

I honestly didn't think this trip was going to go very well. I was dreading spending New Years away from Adam and my home, and I was really worried about the plane ride and spending so much time with my family. Arizona actually hasn't been all that bad, though. The Grand Canyon was super boring after like, the first lookout point, but my family and I still made jokes and had fun and everyone seemed to be in pretty good spirits. I've actually enjoyed their company a lot.

Phoenix is so beautiful. I don't think I could actually live here, but who knows. The weather is so amazing, and the Arizona sun is intoxicating. I would love the atmosphere of living in a suburb close to a big city like Phoenix, but I just don't like the fact that grass doesn't grow here and it gets to be 115 degrees in the summer. I'd like to find a place that has all 4 seasons, and a place that is peaceful, but is only miles away from bustle. I really don't want that place to be Illinois, but you never know. I'll just take whatever life throws at me, I guess. I'll be happy as long as I have a roof over my head.

I guess it is time to do this...

New Year's Resolutions, anyone? I'd really like to hear yours. I've thought about mine, and for now, they are as follows:

1. I really need to communicate more with my parents. This has caused a lot of problems in the past year, and it really needs to change.

2. I have got to stop being so reckless with my money. I can't really hold down a job right now, so the only money I get is a monthly check from my parents. Between gas and groceries (which I don't really need since I only ever eat at the MUC and Adam's), I don't really have much spending money, but the money that I do I really need to save for emergencies. This is going to be very hard for me because I love shopping and getting new things, but right now I can't really afford that kind of stuff. This is just something I have to deal with.

3. I need to be more health conscious. I know, I know...this is the most cliche New Year's resolution ever, but I really do need to start. I haven't quite gained my freshman 15, but I definitely do not plan on making it that far. This resolution also includes working out. There is an awesome facility at school, and Adam has some stuff at his house. I really need to use my resources.


Oh, resolutions. I wonder how long these will last? It is really more about changing your lifestyle than anything. What do you guys plan to do this new year?

XOXO
Meg

This is weird.

Last night, around midnight, everyone in my family went to bed. We stayed up for the Illinois New Years, then everyone just kinda fell asleep. That's not a big deal.

The big deal is that we were all supposed to be up and ready by 11:15, so we could leave to go do touristy stuff. My family is big on getting up and being on time on vacations. Especially my dad. I woke up around 10:30 to my mother getting back into bed. She was dressed, showered, hair and make up done, but was getting back in bed. Nobody else was awake. Not even my dad. It is 11:00 now and everyone is still sleeping.

It's kinda freaking me out.
This doesn't normally happen.


Weird.